The more I connect with my spiritual nature, the more I feel weighed down by my body. I feel like it’s holding me back. Is it normal to want to drop this physical body in order to ascend?
I’m intimately familiar with the struggle you’re speaking of. When I took a deep dive into Kundalini yoga, meditation, and other similar practices, I can remember feeling trapped in my body. A huge part of me wanted to figure out how to shed this physical vehicle that I felt was keeping me imprisoned. I wanted to ascend this Earth plane altogether and felt, as you say “tethered,” mostly by this heavy body that wouldn’t allow lift-off. I think in some cases this can produce anxiety, depression, and even suicidal thoughts. I didn’t feel that I belonged here, and I felt for a very long time that I was being punished in some way by being stuck here. I took care of my body, but under the surface I felt an ever-present annoyance with it.
I spent several years with this mindset. At some point, however, I realized that I am here for a reason. I’d been given a gift. By focusing all of my energy on getting out of here, I wasn’t honoring my purpose or carrying out my divine mission. I started to see my body for the miracle that it is. It allows me to be here, to experience this beautiful place, and to learn the lessons I came here to learn. I turned my attention towards self-care, loving my body, and healing. It’s amazing how, with intention, your perspective can shift very quickly. I had never really had a positive relationship with my body. I read somewhere that we go through three distinct phases—1. Trashing the body by allowing in toxins, making unhealthy sexual choices, etc.; 2. Feeling trapped in the body and having a strong desire to shed it; and 3. Truly loving the body we’ve been given & viewing it as sacred. I don’t know if this is true for everyone, but it certainly holds true in my own life.
I can say now though that my connection to Source is stronger than it’s ever been. I think a lot of this has to do with accepting my purpose and place on this earth & being committed to honoring it in the way that I show up in the world.
I believe that deep down we all have a desire to return “home.” But there’s a reason we made the choice to leave. Make no mistake… it’s a choice. You came here for a very specific purpose that only you can fulfill. My advice is to find out what that is and arrange your life to reflect that.
Knowing that you are here for a special purpose, how can you honor that by truly inhabiting your body in a healthy way? How can you strengthen your sacred connection to God through the temple you’ve been given? How can you begin to love your body for all that it is & all that it isn’t?
Lots of Love,